Home Sick

Have you ever woken up wishing you could go back in time? I do, all the time. I talked to my best friend Meaghan, who is currently living in Singapore right now. We talked for about three hours last night about everything, this is pretty unusual for us, we usually talk for much longer. It's so hard living half way across the world from your best friend, she's the only one I've ever been able to talk to, and now we only talk once every two months. I guess that's why I'm writing in this blog right now, I need to express how I'm feeling, but I can't exactly trust anyone with the big issues in my life. I'm really excited though, Meaghans moving back to Colorado this Summer, and my mum and I are going to help them move in. It's pretty cool that my mum and Miss Eloise (Meaghan's mum) are best friends too, it makes it easier for us to see each other.

I guess I'm also missing Singapore a lot lately as well, it's so different here in California. I always have to worry about my safety here, I never had to think about that in Singapore, and I hate turning on the news to find gang wars and countless girls being raped every day. I would never be one of those girls in Singapore, but here, it's not as impossible for my life to be taken from me. But I suppose there are bad people everywhere, in Singapore though, they are all too afraid of the Government to act out the evil deeds they think about. On the other hand, I remember when the terrorist attempted to attack Singapore American School, even though no one ever thought he would be able to get away with it. I also miss the culture in Singapore, or the lack of a stereotype, there was simply too diverse a population for there to be just one culture. Even though there were some segregation; the chinese and malaysian population lived mainly in China Land, while the Indian population lived mainly in Little India, and the European and American population lived mainly in the woodlands. And even though there were distinct cultural town, people intermingled on a daily basis in the city, schools, and practically everywhere you go. I truly do miss that, I feel that most people in the U.S. are so close minded, not everyone is of course, but a lot. I think thats why I don't fit in; but think I'm okay with that, I wouldn't take back anything I've done in my lifetime; and I don't know many people who share that mind set.